I am not feeling at all well. It is hard to feel sick and take internet classes, they dont let you make up the work. So I am finishing up what I can and I'll be under the covers while Im under the weather.

I cant think bout it no more

My friend lost her husband March 5th and I was at the hospitol when.........
and its hard to talk about

and now I fear death more than ever

he was 25 .... want more details note me, I just wanted peeps to know I wanst ignoring them.

<3 and Good night Im lost for words today.

And




You whispered goobye




Denial held my hand




Hurt wiped my tears




Disgrace kissed my lips


Desire held me close


AND




Love walked away




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I shaved my legs and thought;




..............maybe




................... I'll try again someday..............




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What




What you said




Hurts just as much today




As it did yesterday




Your actions speak louder than




The screaming inside my head




My heart was breaking




I wish I never knew your deceit




You left me here wanting to take back what is already here




Needing to create what will never exist




Reaching for what will never be




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Yeah, Im running again, and I will have a Rockstar ass by this summer I have no time for me it seems, and the more I try to add to my life the more I take away? I am blown away by how fast life is taking me in so many directions I havent had time to take any photos or keep life simple like I used to. Enjoyment has turned into games played by others to make my life that much more interesting.. NOT lol. I just want people to treat eachother well, and stop playing games that hurt others. What ever happen to honesty? ....... I am disappointed to say the least in a man who could be someone great and chooses to be someone barely alive and taking the easy road instead of real life. I guess I knew he was going to do what he did, but part of me had hoped he was better than that. I hate when I'm right in these situations. I have lost a lot of faith in people and even more trust in them due to this new occurence. (I know my spelling is off today, im lazy and dont want to look anything up ) School is going fine, I am burned out and just want it to be over. ........ okay enough depressing crap, how is everyone? Good I hope! Miss you all!
~Desiresdisgrace~ of Crapington

yipper; 33 and I still feel 19; .... my body aches a lil more lol; but otherwise I think I should stay this age forever!

~................... hopefully I will feel artsie again soon and will have something to post... I have been busy busy busy so there has been no time for moi!

Miss you all and hope to be around more.... but school is looking quite hecktick!

Dont forget me!